秋叶：生命里最长的一个冬季 (2)

Thank you all for making me cry and keeping me warm in the cold winter.  I've read all your messages, word by word, and I've picked up all the hugs/flowers/handshaking.  Promise I'll keep them all inside my heart.  Forgive me for not having enough strength to respond you individually but 一切尽在不言之中。

It is a holiday season.  I do not want my silly writing ruin your joyful mood of the year.  So I took it off and saved it for myself as it was meant to be.  I apologize if I write more nonsense later on for I only want to record down my thoughts at this particular time of my life but never intend to affect you via spreading the negative energy.  The only thing I ask for you is that you live your life to its fullest, enjoy every single healthy and/or happy moment, eat, love, sex… whatever makes you feel alive.  Life is too precious to be wasted.  You would truly understand what I mean when you get near where I am, of course, I truly hope you don’t.