Still Felt

小凯

Still felt

山豆凡/小凯


She wanted to separate
The wall was the drab old color
Shabby shoes, same lipstick

She nagged every day, almost every day

He had been jailed in a prison
He could go anywhere he wanted
But, no freedom, no sex

He masturbated everyday, almost everyday

She had a boring marriage
A few kids, a little bit money
She programmed everything
She slept every minute of those nights

He wandered around all those years
looking for a lady, a lady in his memory
He once fell so deep for her
Always remembered, is that sweet, sweet whisper

She got divorced
The wall was repainted with a different color
And, new shoes, new lipsticks

She is so pretty, really pretty

He was released from the prison
He could go anywhere he wants
And, much freedom, lots of sex

He can get laid every week, several times a week

She got divorced
He was released from the prison

She left; she was hurt, and in pain and anger
He was discharged, also hurt; he got some torn pieces in the letter

He has missed her since he stepped out of the prison door
Still felt, is the intimate touch with her gentle, gentle fingers

She got divorced
she said no, no, no, no more, mister
She doesn’t want to be together

He was released from the prison
Palm prints everywhere in his prison cell are hers
Next to those broken champagne glasses used to be roses never forever

She got divorced
He was released from the prison

She doesn’t have a ring on her finger, not any more
Still in his wallet though, is a well-kept, old, old picture